I have had a great week with Loving Rowan. The book has climbed the charts and been top 100 on iBooks in Australia, New Zealand and Ireland. So a big thank you again to all those who support me and buy my work.
I've had some feedback, but always keen for more! I love Rowan's shyness, and the way she grows in confidence with the right man. :D
One thing that is worth mentioning too is that I also announced on Facebook that my next project will be Andrew's story. It will pick up after the park scene at the end of Loving Rowan and cover him starting his life again.
I didn't really like him when I was writing Loving Rowan, and I can tell you that originally the story was not going to go in the direction it ended up in. I fought what Andrew did, but he was very demanding and I had to give in.
However, I think that when you go through so much and have to deal with the depth of pain he did, that sometimes people do crazy things and act out of character. His story will not be Loving Rowan part 2, that part of his life is over. Now he needs to find a job and work out how to live his life without the two people who meant the most to him.
So, I thought I'd share a bit of what I've written so far. It's rough as it's unedited, but you get the gist, and some will recognise the scene! By the way, I am working on something else as well, but that is going to be under wraps for a while longer.
She stood, and my heart broke all over again to look at her. Out of this, I would never be able to salvage any kind of friendship. I would never have her hold my hand, hug me in comfort, pat me on the shoulder to reassure me that despite whatever screw up I’d made, I would still be okay.
The pain I felt at losing her was overwhelming, but I knew I’d suffered that loss three years ago when I’d made my choice and taken her.
“Get better, Andrew. Find a way to move on and be happy. You deserve that.” There was nothing in her eyes, no love, no compassion. Someone who felt so deeply, and yet now she felt nothing for me.
“Love you, Rowan. Always have, always will,” I said.
She turned and walked away, before running and leaping into Kyle’s arms. He spun her round, and the sound of their shared laughter floated through the air. What I would have given to make her laugh like that.
I watched as he kissed her tenderly. Everything about him screamed of the love he felt for his wife, the one woman I could never have.
I stayed on the bench for a while, watching as they disappeared into the distance. It was over. I’d made my peace with Rowan, but there would be no more us in any capacity, and that still tore me apart inside. So many sleepless nights inside, thinking of this moment, when she finally let me go.
Who was I kidding? I let go first.
Ariadne Wayne is the pen name of an overworked, often exhausted mother of two who frequently turns to the internet for relaxation. It doesn't always work...